But I wish it was from something as simple as Halloween or a scary movie. Hell, Stranger Things just came out on Netflix; I could probably breeze right through that!
No, I’m scared because tomorrow is my first ever pole dancing show – and my first performance of any kind in a very, very long time.
So I thought I’d write you all a post about the range of emotions I’m feeling.
I’m pretty damn proud of myself. I’ve worked my ass off learned some awesome stuff. I even revised my solo pole routine (I’m doing one solo and one group chair dance) to include a move I recently realized I can do – extended butterfly.
2) Scared shitless
I mean, why else would I have titled the post this way?? I think my feelings are pretty well captured in this photo from three minutes ago:
My solo scares me, but I did some great work with my instructor today so I think I’ll be able to nail it. Either way, I’m super excited about the group chair routine. I can’t give away the farm here, but here’s a sneak peek – this is some creepy cool shit!
Mostly because last night I had the joy and pleasure of watching my son perform for me. And I realized how much what I do influenced my kids and that filled me with appreciation and love.
Also, it’s fucking hilarious because my son is adorable.
Because on Sunday I can eat ALL THE SUGAR ALL THE CARBS ALL THE JUNK FOOD.
It is my understanding that we will get YouTube videos from this performance so hopefully I’ll have some great new content to blog for you next week.
WISH ME LUCK