This Blog is About to Get SAF (Sexy as Fuck)

So here’s the thing. I know I emote on here like crazy – whatever I’m feeling, you see it, read about it in great detail. It’s great. I love it. I’ve been trying to connect with my emotions, own them, and just express them like a mother-fucker for years. And I’m going to keep doing that because that’s what I do. That’s what you come back for. 

But there’s one specific feeling I’ve never been good at embracing:

Sexiness

I was raised very prude. I had kissed two boys before I got married and, as a teenager, I thought being sexy was bad. Of all the emotions I’ve suppressed, blocked, and ignored in my life, sexiness has suffered the most. It was bad. Evil. A temptation. I avoided it and anyone who likes it at all costs. 

I’ve been working on this particular battle for years and, interestingly enough, finding it coming head-to-head with the performer in me. 

A year ago, I started taking pole dancing classes. 

Yep. Sexy, sensual, artistic, fun, awesome, self-defining and confidence-building pole dancing classes. I love it. It allows me express myself in a completely new way (I’ve never been a dancer, never really even tried) and has helped me work on feeling, acting, and BEING sexy. 

In fact, I’ve loved it so much that I went out and bought one of these, then made my husband install it in my basement (oh my!):


The funny thing about this is that I distinctly recall reading an article five years ago about a woman who bought a pole for her house and then would invite her friends over and play around on it, trying different sexy moves. Being sexy with your friends?? Pole dancing?? That’s crazy! 

I guess I’m her. 

But I have other ideas in mind. I want to start learning some choreography, doing some short dances, and I want to feed my inner performer by posting them here. Someday, I may even have the courage to put them on facebook, but for now, you are the lucky few to be graced with my clumsy attempts at sexiness!!

I don’t know how often I’ll do this – I don’t even know how long it will take me to learn a 2-minute routine – but it will be fun! And if it’s not sexy, it will be funny!!

I may also post to Instagram so you can follow me there as well: Jayne’s Instagram.

Here’s some started photos for you. I’m obsessed with black and white pictures – everything seems to look better in B&W. Just a little snapshot of what’s to come. Sexy Jayne makes her entrance!





Ok, last one is less sexy and more just fun, but you get the idea…hope you enjoy!!

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