I have started a podcast. I’ve done this primarily because I think my poetry has more life when I speak than when it’s sitting latent on the page. As such, most forthcoming poems will come with a link to my podcast where I put myself on the line and read them with as much emotion as I can muster. Ho boy! Hope you like it. Here’s “It’s Me”.
Podcast Link: Download this episode (right click and save)
It came at me quick
It came at me fast
“Oh dear God, please understand
I can’t possibly last”
Red drips fell
From my cheek to my chin
I collapsed to the dust
Drowning in my own sin
I could not speak
Could not even cry
Faded sheets and false friends
Had left me to die
The blood on my hands
The tear in my skirt
They wrapped me up softly
Led me low to the dirt
I crumpled in deep
To my cold lonely friend
Prickled hugs, worn out kisses
A life playing pretend
Covered in scratched canvas
I gave it all in
I closed my eyes tight
Gave my body its last wind
Slower and deeper
Farther I sank
Every dream I had clung to
Washed up on the bank
My body lay empty
An old used up rag
A log with no fire
A toy with no tag
Hours later
Or minutes, or more
I still had not left
I still clutched the floor
Something awoke
Or within me sparked
It started a flame
It shattered the dark
Something so silent
From the grave rose
Rust and dents
Brown paper and snow
It wasn’t the Christ
It wasn’t the free
It was all the dead, lost,
Rejected parts of me
They stood and they danced
Made hay in the rain
They took the second chance
To soak in their blame
They said it’s okay
They said it’s all right
To give up the day
To seek out the night
To wallow in filth
To tear to the core
To break and to bleed
Lay naked on the shore
To put on a show
To dress up in silk
To shower in sunshine
And honey and milk
Then step into garbage
And rip it in two
Swim in the mud
Till I’m raw and nude
Then look at myself
All tattered and rent
A wretched cantankerous mess
Half broken, half bent
And see something real
Bruised, black and green
It’s ugly, it’s corrupt, it’s fucked up
But it’s me
Hoo Boy! Glad you took the plunge. I was just thinking of starting a podcast too.
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Thanks! You should – it would be a great complement to the YouTube vids. And it would be like a rehearsal platform for your standup comedy lol!
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